Feist - Inside and Out

I keep telling myself that I'll stay away from this and all blogs until the end of the semester in order to concentrate on homework. I'm starting to see that it's not going to be possible.

You're killing me Mr. Wright! Seriously killing me!

Vegetarian?

I've been a vegetarian for over a year now and don't really miss eating meat all that much. That said, I definitely think there are some meaty meals that I wouldn't be able to pass up.
1. Philly cheese steak in Philly. I'm saying in Philly because I know they are the best there. Nothing compares to Philly cheese steak made in Philly. When I was little we took a field trip to Philadelphia to see the liberty bell and all that other rad stuff. I had a Philly cheese there and instantly fell in love. it was beyond delicious.
2. Chicago dog in Chicago. They look so delicious. Someday I will get up there and have a hotdog. Someday.
Tell me these pictures aren't mouthwatering and I will call you the biggest liar on the face of this earth.

Belle and Sebastian - I'm Not Living in the Real World

The Cars - You Might Think

Oh well uh you might think I’m crazy
To hang around with you
Or maybe you think I’m lucky
To have somethin’ to do
But I think that you’re wild
Inside me is some child

You might think I’m foolish
Or maybe it’s untrue
(you might think I’m crazy)
You might think I’m crazy
(all I want is you)
But all I want is you

You might think it’s hysterical
But I know when you’re weak
You think you’re in the movies
And everything’s so deep
But I think that you’re wild
When you flash that fragile smile

You might think it’s foolish
What ya put me through
(you might think I’m crazy)
You might think I’m crazy
(all I want is you)
All I want is you

And it was hard so hard to take
There’s no escape without a scrape
But you kept it going till the sun fell down
You kept it going

Oh well uh you might think I’m delirious
The way I run you down
But somewhere sometimes
When you’re curious
I’ll be back around
Oh I think that you’re wild
And so-o uniquely styled

You might think it’s foolish
This chancy rendezvous
(you might think I’m crazy )
You might think I’m crazy
(all I want is you)
All I want is you-a-oo
All I want is you
(all I want is you)
All I want is you

"Don’t be afraid to be a fool. Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don’t learn anything. Because cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world because we are afraid it will hurt us or disappoint us. Cynics always say no. But saying yes begins things. Saying yes is how things grow. Saying yes leads to knowledge. “Yes” is for young people. So for as long as you have the strength to, say yes."

I want to skate so bad. Sooooo bad it makes me kinda want to cry. Yup, that's how bad.

Paquita le del Bario - Rata de dos Patas

I think the lyrics to this song are so funny. Mean, but funny. Some dude must've broken this lady's heart real bad.

Maldita cucaracha
que infectas donde pisas
que hieres y que matas

I don't want to grow up.

I don't want to grow up yet. I still want to be a kid and play. I had a talk with my uncle where he told me that I need to grow up, stop skating, get a good job and start saving for the future, start thinking about marriage, act like a woman, and stop 'wasting' my time in California every summer. As much as I think he's full of bolognia he might be right about some of the stuff. Kind of. Not really.
I should get a good job and start saving money but...not here or right now. I don't see the point of getting a good job when I'm leaving in two months. I don't see the point of getting a good job in a place where I don't want to live for the rest of my life. My family wants me to go to vet school here, but I don't want to live here for the rest of my life. As soon as I can get out of here, I want to. My sights are set on going to vet school in California and living out there and getting a 'good' job out there.
As far as the 'stop skating' thing goes, I'm thinking he's maybe right. I physically -and mentally- am not capable of really skating. I haven't had a good time skating for the last three and a half months. My knee will probably never be the same as it was. I'll eventually probably be able to roll around and do a couple tricks or whatever, but my days of spending hours upon hours at a skatepark are probably over. The sucky thing is that even when it's a lot better I'll still be scared to skate. I've never ever felt pain like I have with this knee thing. Sounds dumb, but I everytime I think about skating and hurting my knee again, I feel like crying. All I can imagine is skating, planting my foot wrong, feeling my knee bend sideways, hearing a bunch of pops, and then being in horrible pain. I guess I'll have to find another hobby. Boys maybe. Just kidding. I meant school and bike rides and going to the gym and going to the beach and cooking and reading and crocheting and volunteering and stuff.
The whole marriage thing is a joke. I don't want to get married anytime soon, especially here in Florida. Like I said before, Florida is temporary. I want to be on the west coast. I don't want to get married until I know that I will love that person forever and always be happy with them. And how will I know that? Beats me. I guess when the person's right and time is right, you just know. I know some married people that are happy and have been for a long time. And then I know some people that can't stay married long or have had really crummy marriages or are always fighting with their spouse. It seems like today, the second scenario is much more common. In any case, I don't want to get married right now. If that and skating are the only things keeping me from being a 'woman', then I guess I'm halfway there.
As far as the 'wasting time in California' thing goes, I don't think I'm wasting time. I'm truely happy there. I don't think that doing something that makes you happy means you're wasting your time. I've only been there two summers, but I can't really imagine not going. I think I've mentioned it before on this blog, but if I had the chance, I would live at camp, no questions asked. I can't really say it enough. I'm happy there. I love hanging out with kids everyday and knowing what I'm going to eat everyday and just hanging out with people I actually like hanging out with.

"I pushed away everyone that cared about me because I didn't want to risk being disappointed. I guess I thought that I if I acted like I didn't care, I would care and him being gone wouldn't hurt so much."