I wish I had the right words to fully describe to you how much I DON'T want to study right now. Everything else has become a thousand times more important than learning this material.

That mosquito that's flying around my ear and my desire to annihilate it are way more important than MRE B. 

My cat trying to lay on my pillow and having to move her every time she does? Way more important than replicating cells.

My upcoming Arizona vacay: so much more important than divisomes.

The fact that I didn't get a chance to go to the gym today and I haven't done any arm stuff in a week: infinitely more important that Min E and its function.

My procrastinating skills: much more powerful than FtsZ's effect on a cell.

This blog post complaining about not wanting to study for my exam tomorrow: way more interesting than peptidoglycan synthesis.

I just want this semester to be over. I want to just have a lame-o job that I don't have to think about 24 hours a day. Do it for eight hours, collect my money, and go do something fun. I want to go hiking, or surfing, or take a nice long walk by a lake, walk around town taking pictures, go skating, ride a bike, post more stuff on this bloggy, tutor more kids, garden more, go to farmers markets, learn a new language, go roller skating, spend time with my family, hang out with friends, go on a trip, move to Arizona, eat pizza, go to the gym more, draw a pretty picture, read a good book, or make a new friend.   I don't think I'm meant to go to school. At least not now. Maybe someday in the future.. Right now I just want to have fun! Where you at fun?

Maggy's Spring Break 2014

Maggy, an old friend from camp, came to visit us and we had a blast! We went to Islands of Adventure, saw a bunch of movies and went to the beach. Islands of Adventure was pretty rad. I drank soda aka butter beer for the first time in a very,very,very long time. It was amazing. I was pretty skeptical at first, but it was so good. Probably my favorite thing at Universal. I had three. I pretty much need the recipe now. 

 I pretty much just took a bunch of random pictures all weekend. Except at the beach. Somehow I forgot to take some at the beach. 

 Big head puking out water

 Poseidon hand!

 There's the butter beer cart! So amazing. From what I hear it's like crack. I mean I've never had crack but I hear it's pretty addicting. Just like butter beer.

 Hogwarts

 Hogwarts Pt. 2. I really like how the people that built this played with perspective. The castle seems bigger than it really is because of the windows. Pretty rad.

 Hands down my favorite part of the park (besides the butter beer) was Toon Lagoon. I'm a huge fan of drawing and comics and to see them life-size was so cool! I wish every building in real life looked like the buildings here. 

 Maggy and Cass have their own speech bubbles

 Isn't he just adorable?!

 "Maggy! You're not supposed to laugh!"

 "Good pose, good pose."

I like visits from friends. Sometimes I wish we could all live in a camp type setting, but in the real world, where we can be neighbors and all hang out but have real jobs. And see each other everyday and do fun things like this all the time. Maybe someday...

If you are a loyal follower of this blog, then you know that a couple weeks ago I took a trip up to NJ/NY/Philly for spring break. If you didn't know, now you do. Well, this is a silly little video, I finally finished, of the trip.

Hating you won't make you suck any less

My new favorite song!! It's so good! It's been on repeat for like an hour now all day. Listen, listen, listen!

Have you ever wanted to be
Have you ever wanted to see
Someone better, in the mirror

Have you ever wanted to go
Have you ever wanted to know
Somewhere greener, somewhere cleaner

I really, really, really like this song! Haha and the skating of course. I "eeeep-ed" a bunch during it. That's saying something. I don't 'eep' unless something is really awesome.

(Annnnnd you've probably tried to watch it BUT realized you can't. So you'll have to watch it on youtube.  I know, I know. It's a hassle, but it's really good! Trust me! Go watch it!)

Winter night scootering

 Be with someone who you don’t have to hide from, in any way. Whether it’s your morning face before you’ve put your make up on, an embarrassing story to tell about something that happened on your way home, or an ambition you’ve had since you were six… make sure you end up with someone who knows all of it and still loves you. A person you can tell your whole life to is a person worth spending a life with. 


**this**

I only half hope that this semester doesn't go so great. Academic suspension doesn't sound so bad, ya know? I mean, I'll get a job, maybe head out to Arizona for a bit, pay off all my bills, hang out with friends and family more often, be more physically active. It actually sounds pretty great. Don't worry!  It's not like I'm going to stop trying to do well, but IF I don't do well enough to stay in school, I won't be so bummed.

Maybe this'll give me some time to think about what I really want to pursue as a career..

 College: where you pay $6000 a semester to be on Facebook and sleep in really uncomfortable chairs, in what seem to be really uncomfortable sleeping positions. 

Hey! Yo, girl! I skate, too! Let's be friends. 

A LETTER FROM JOHN STEINBECK ON LOVE TO HIS SON

Dear Thom: 

We had your letter this morning. I will answer it from my point of view and of course Elaine will from hers. 

First — if you are in love — that’s a good thing — that’s about the best thing that can happen to anyone. Don’t let anyone make it small or light to you.

Second — There are several kinds of love. One is a selfish, mean, grasping, egotistical thing which uses love for self-importance. This is the ugly and crippling kind. The other is an outpouring of everything good in you — of kindness and consideration and respect — not only the social respect of manners but the greater respect which is recognition of another person as unique and valuable. The first kind can make you sick and small and weak but the second can release in you strength, and courage and goodness and even wisdom you didn’t know you had. 

You say this is not puppy love. If you feel so deeply — of course it isn’t puppy love. 

But I don’t think you were asking me what you feel. You know better than anyone. What you wanted me to help you with is what to do about it — and that I can tell you. 

Glory in it for one thing and be very glad and grateful for it. 

The object of love is the best and most beautiful. Try to live up to it. 

If you love someone — there is no possible harm in saying so — only you must remember that some people are very shy and sometimes the saying must take that shyness into consideration. 

Girls have a way of knowing or feeling what you feel, but they usually like to hear it also. 

It sometimes happens that what you feel is not returned for one reason or another — but that does not make your feeling less valuable and good. 

Lastly, I know your feeling because I have it and I’m glad you have it. 

We will be glad to meet Susan. She will be very welcome. But Elaine will make all such arrangements because that is her province and she will be very glad to. She knows about love too and maybe she can give you more help than I can. 

And don’t worry about losing. If it is right, it happens — The main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away. 

Love, Fa


Another reason I like Steinbeck..