I'm starting to get into the whole 'I couldn't care less about anything' mindset. Last time I thought this way I started skipping class, did things I'm not too proud of, and took a year off school. I have to snap out of it soon or stuff isnt going to be good.

Charlotte Gainsbourg - Me and Jane Doe

My knee is currently sucking a nut (not literally) and it sucks (also not literally).

I'm 10 again

Mom: What are you making?
Me: Nunya.
Mom: What is it?
Me: Nunya.
Mom: What is that?!
Me: Nunya business!
Mom: Pendeja!

Today,

I went to Winter Park and then New Smyrna Beach.

I love food.

Dad: Where did you get all that?
Me: The store.
Dad: Why didn't you ask me for money?
Me: Because I have some.
Dad: From where?
Me: My tuition.
Dad: Stupid daughter. You should ask me. What are you making?
Me: Pasta. Do you want some?
Dad: Of course! I never say 'no' to food.

...now I know why I like food so much.

If I could pick 10 things to eat for the rest of my life, I would pick:
1. Blueberries
2. Strawberries
3. Mushrooms sautéed with garlic
4. Cantaloupe (has to be ripe and sweet)
5. Water from a young thai coconut
6. Fresh spring rolls with the delicious peanut sauce
7. Crisp organic gala apples
8. Watermelon (has to be sweet)
9. Fresh pineapple
10. Pizza (just because it's that good and there's so many different types)


This was dinner tonight.

It was delicious. It's brown rice pasta with green beans, scallions, sesame seeds, mushrooms, gluten-free soy sauce, and bean sprouts. It was vegan and gluten-free.
My dad and uncle ate some and they thought it really good. They tend to stay away from anything I say is healthy because some of the stuff I've given them has made them want to gag (like green juice). Today I didn't say 'healthy' or 'vegan' or 'gluten-free' so they were down to eat. They ate more than I did (which is hard to do) and it kinda made me wish I'd said one of the scary words.

Resolution update

A month has pretty much gone by and I feel like it's time to review the new years resolutions I made because some of them might not be kept.

[1. Go to bed early. (11-ish)
2. Wake up early. (7-ish)]
*These first two resolutions were kept one day. ONE!! I currently go to bed around 4 or 5 a.m. and wake up around noon, except for the days I have school, in which case I'm up around 10. I'm changing these two to: get a good night's sleep.

3. Get good grades. Nothing lower than an A-.
*This one'll be cake!

4. Get healthy. Lots of fruits and veggies. Make it to the raw food dinners six times. Exercise everyday, even if it’s just a 10 minute bike ride around the block. Get buff again. Get to the point where I am once again capable of doing 20 pull ups and 100 push ups without stopping.
*This one has quite a few parts to it. The first part is about eating healthier which has actually been pretty easy. Most days I only eat fruits and vegetables. I've had pizza maybe twice, cookies maybe twice. Lost a couple pounds which is pretty cool.
Exercise has been an almost everyday thing except for that first week that I hurt my knee. I was supposed to stay off my leg for at least two weeks but after the third day of laying bed i i felt like i was going to go insane, so took off my immobilizer and started walking around. I fell a couple times and that sucked but it was better than not doing anything. Now, until I get my knee brace so i can start skating again, its been the gym everyday. It either swimming or bike riding for an hour an then lifting. I seem to have a really hard time not doing anything. I've always been really active. Before skateboarding there was track and wrestling. Before that it was football. Before that it was swimming, bike riding, tag, swing sets, and basketball.
The whole push ups and pull ups goal is slow. I can do 25 push ups and 2 pull ups. Sucks.

5. Read a book every month.
*It's only been a month, so that means one book and I read this book by some lady Fitzgerald. I read it 2 weeks ago. It was good. I don't remember what it was called, but it was good.

[6. Re-memorize all the state capitals. And then country capitals.
7. Relearn the bones in the body. Then muscles and ligaments and tendons. Once I successfully accomplish that, learn the organs and their locations. And then nerves. And then other stuff. Basically everything in the body, I want to know.
8. Go to Woodward.
9. Go to the doctor and dentist at least once. Get blood work done.
10. Start saving up for the move to California.]
* I haven't really started on any of these yet. It's okay. I have all year.

This is pretty dang good.

More camp dreams

New big street.

Camp boyfriend.

Awkward dinners.

Sweaty armpit pokes.

Bribery.

Vans Closing Clips

I was going to make a short crummy cellphone footy montage but didn't feel like it (and the sound wasn't working and the footy was plain horrible) so here are some clips from Friday's closing party. The clips aren't any better still have crummy quality, but at least if you get sick of the quality after the first one you can stop watching. Even though technically you could stop watching after the first clip if you're watching a montage, but that's besides the point. Just watch. These are the last clips from Vans you will ever see on this blog. 

Little Robbie and Daniel Lutheran

Bb's back!!

Nick. Trying to skate Vans on the last couple days was like playing frogger.

Daniel. At the end you'll notice some little kid falls to the ground. Daniel's board hit him in the legs. I wish I would've kept filming.

Vert sesh, bro.

Yodaaaa!

Daniel.

There were alot more, but that's all I feel like uploading. Maybe sometime soon I'll post the rest. That way you'll see Vans clips even after Vans has been no more for a while. Maybe. Maybe not.

More camp dreams.

Last night I dreamt that it was time to leave for camp and I packed my stuff up and got a ride to the airport. I forgot to get my ticket ahead of time so I had to buy it there and it ended up being $832. I was bummed, but at the same time I knew I was off to camp so I didn't care. As I was waiting to catch my flight I was instagramming, blogging, facebooking and just not paying attention to how fast time was going by. I looked at the time and realized I was two minutes late so I ran to get through security and get checked in. They said they would hold the plane for 10 minutes. I ran all over the airport and couldn't find terminal E,
which was were the flight was supposed to be. I was running like a wild woman all through the airport and there were other travelers that were cheering me on as I ran. They were pointing in the direction of terminal E. When I was finally there I was five minutes too late and I ended up missing my flight. I cried. I had to wait for a flight that left the next morning. While I was crying I realized that I'd forgotten my shoes and my boards, so I called home and my mom agreed to send them. Then I woke up.
Good thing there isn't a terminal E at this airport!!

Dean Martin - That's Amore

Too good!!
"When you walk down a street with a cloud at your feet, you're in love.
When you walk in a dream but you know you're not dreaming, signore."

Five months down. Four more to go.

Camp dreams

Last night dreamt that I was at camp. Every time I woke up and went back to sleep I continued with my dream.
In the first part of my dream I was hanging out with this greaser looking dude with blondish brownish hair and and glasses. The cabins we were staying in looked nothing like the cabins at camp. They had two floors, patios and looked alot more like cabins you would find in the woods. Him and his greaser buddy told me to sneak out my cabin to smoke a boge and i did. We had to smoke on the patio because if not the cabin would smell. I accidentally dropped the boge and had to jump off the second story patio to put it out because it began to catch leaves on fire. He'd given me this cool, white, long sleeve shirt that said something about oranges on it because I was cold.
Somebody was bummed that he'd given me the shirt, so they put it over a muddy puddle so parents and campers wouldn't step in it. I was bummed but bleached the shirt and it was good as new.
Then all of a sudden I had a bum leg so people kept carrying me around. I didnt even ask them, they would just pick me up and go. We were eating lunch outside, watching this kid jeremy who was crail sliding this wall that had like six feet of vert on it, which was where the crater was supposed to be. I was trying to film it on an iPhone but was having a hard time because I couldn't get the width of the screen to cooperate or something. Then a camper told me I was dumb because I sucked at filming with an iPhone. I just looked at him and laughed as he explained how to do it.
We went into what was supposedly the hanger and went up to the vert ramp. There was a bunch of girls stretching. I'm thinking it was girls week. One of the dudes that was carrying me thought it would be funny to jump off the vert ramp into what looked like the resi. The landing ended up being really, really soft. Bounce house soft so it didn't hurt at all.
All of us were osi's and thought we were going to have to work so someone went to go check the schedule. All of a sudden, we remembered it was Sunday and didn't have to work and we jumped for joy.
My current English teacher came out of some office as we were going to the bathroom and told the dudes that if they were caught doing anything they shouldn't with 'gals' they would be forbidden to wear deodorant but could chew gum. Some dude said something about how he was going to smell worse than he already did. I laughed and they were bummed because of the deodorant thing and then I woke up for good.

The Teen Idles - Sneakers

Put on your sneakers and be a kid
You're not fooling anyone

“But I must admit I miss you terribly. The world is too quiet without you nearby. I go to bed early and rise late and feel as if I have hardly slept.”
- Lemony Snicket

Happy Birthday Ma!

Dad (reading mom's birthday card): You're 52?! Man you're old!

Today I tried to walk fast and tripped on the grass. I feel like a toddler.

The Cramps - I Can't Hardly Stand It

I hope swimming isn't a part of that whole no physical activity because that's what I'll be doing until I can skate.

3-6 weeks until I'm supposed to do any physical activities.

1 week and 2 days down.

1 week and 5 days -- 4 weeks and 5 days to go. Fudge!

Dion & The Belmonts - Lovers Who Wander

Mom: Do you know where the broom is?
Me: Up your butt and around the corner.
Mom: (silence) Huh?

Dean Martin - Besame Mucho

The Temptations - Ain't too Proud to Beg

The Vandals - Anarchy Burger

Dion & The Belmonts - Runaround Sue

Vivian Girls - Never See Me Again

The McCoys - Hang on Sloopy

Not my name

My mom calls me many things some of which include:

Pepita
Margarita
ET
Loretta
Nena
Etta
Mamita
Nina
Etta care etta

I laugh when I'm in pain. Weird.

Uhh?

Fudgin sucks.

There are no words that can accurately describe how uncomfortable I am at this moment. Any little move I make sends shocks throughout my whole body.

Poop nuggets!

Leg. Knee. Ow. Sprain. MRI in a few days to figure out what's going on in there. Maybe MCL. Maybe meniscus. Definitely painful. Staying away from anything that has four wheels and is made out of wood for the next couple months.

Ps. look at how bright the immobilizer is compared to my cool -but dingy- four star socks. Time for color safe bleach? I think yes.

And...

I was just informed that my favorite photograph, featured in my last post, was an album cover for Dinosaur Jr.'s Green Mind. I think that's pretty cool!

Joseph Szabo

Today as I had a Gilmore Girls marathon with my mom I noticed that one of the characters had a t-shirt that had this photo on it. I knew I'd seen the photo before but couldn't remember who'd taken it. I searched and searched on google and low and behold, I found it! I found it first on some picture website that didn't tell me who had taken the picture, so I resumed searching and found the website I'd seen it on years ago.
The photographer is Joseph Szabo.
I remember the first time I saw this picture I was in my sophomore year at Utah State. I used to hang out in the library for fun, in between classes, and after classes. I was taking a full course load at the time. I had early morning till mid afternoon classes and after classes , on most days, helped at the middle school with their wrestling team. Whenever I wasn't in class or wrestling, I was studying. I usually studied til very early morning and had a few hours before I had to go to class again, so i wasn't really getting sleep at night. I got in the habit of going to the library between my classes. I loved that library. It was big and shiny and had books and computers and people that looked like they were trying to meet deadlines. As soon as i walked into that library i instantly felt smarter.
I got into the routine of getting out of class, rushing to the library (to make the most of my break and stay out of the cold), buying a muffin, and heading down to the bottom floor.
Between my early morning classes I had a two hour break and I got into the habit of using that two hour break to take naps on the arm chairs. The bottom floor had these super comfy arm chairs and I'd put two of them together to make a bed. The makeshift bed was a little small, but I was always tired, so it served its purpose.
It was cool because people rarely went on the bottom floor. I'd be in there for hours and would maybe see one or two people. And the noise level was perfect for anything I wanted to do. It was quiet enough that I could sleep and study, but loud enough that I didn't feel completely alone.
When I didn't have to study, got sufficient sleep, didn't have wrestling, but still didn't want to go home, I would pick out random books and start reading. The bottom floor was the art floor so I started looking through a whole bunch of photography books, sculpture books and drawing books. I started getting into older photos that were black and white. I started looking online for cool photos by this dude. That was were I first saw this photo. Boy, do I miss that library.

The Tallest Man on Earth - Tangle in this Trampled Wheat

"But I see traces of your thoughts out here.
I see a sight, I hear a sound.
I only comfort in the brittleness of days when I can hold what I just found."

"If just tonight that I could be where you are near
And just forget where I am lost."

Rilo Kiley - I Never

I like remembering that I had fun.

New years was a blast. I went to a party at my aunt and uncles house where there was music, dancing, great food and best of all, family. It was so much fun.
Every time we have these huge family functions I can't help think about the future. I wonder if we'll still have these parties when our parents are long gone and we have families of our own. I hope we do.

The food is always the best!

"I like you Lorena. You're not drunk and you don't drink but you're still fun."- Mayra

Jonathan Richman - When She Kisses Me