Old Man Luedecke - I Quit My Job

Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say 'no.' Spend all of your cash. Get to know somebody random. Say 'I love you.' Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a jerk what you think. Laugh til your stomach hurts. Live life. Regret nothing.

I had a dream..

..that it was already time to go back to camp. And I got to see everyone I love and miss and I was happy. The first night there I rolled my ankle and almost cried it hurt so bad. On the way back to my cabin it magically went from night to day, so we drove 2 hours to what was supposedly the town I lived in to buy new shoes, because they were on sale. We went into an asian store where they had a whole bunch of skate shoes, but the only size they had was 3. I was bummed because they weren't going to fit, but after I tried them on. I realized my real shoes size was 3, not 4.5. But they didn.t have any shoes I liked. They were all half-cabs with the lakai logo on them and I didn't like lakai...

Then I woke up.

Welp, good thing I'm done with that!

I quit a week ago. I've actually quit a few times. I lost track of what attempt this is. I think I'm over it now. Hopefully this time it's for good. I watched this commercial today and honestly wanted to ralph watching it. Enjoy! 

How dare you!

How dare you try and scare me out of eating pizza!!

A mini pizza I made a few days ago! Half spinach, half pepperoni!! My brother doesn't like spinach, so I got the whole spinach side to myself! Winning! I hate to toot my own horn, but it was delicious!!!

P.S. it was a little pizza, so half a pizza wasn't much.

because I'ma crazy, crazy, crazy, pazzo, pazzo, pazzo, crazy, crazy for my pizza

I love my pizza, my pizza pie.

Harvey Danger - Flagpole Sitta

I heard this song today on the Thermals station on Pandora.

Is it June yet?

"henry-

...today's idiom from my chengyu calendar read, 'one day, three autumns', meaning when you miss somebody, twenty-four hours can feel like one thousand and ninety five days.

i miss your laugh, your tired gaze, the tangled curls of your hair. you."

Stuff

My mom is giving my old mp3 player to my cousin, so she asked me to go through and erase all the songs that wouldn't be appropriate for a five year old. I hadn't touched the mp3 player for about a year, so I charged it, turned it on and looked at the music I had on it. I was speechless...Some stuff that was on it included Petey Pablo........N'sync.........98 Degrees..........Bowling For Soup..........Hawthorne Heights.........Hayden Panettiere...........Justin Beiber...........Nickelback...........T.I.............Fergie............Jesse McCartney.........New Kids On The Block..........Zion I.........and other stuff I still listen to, but alot of the stuff on there, I haven't heard in a pretty long time. I was kinda surprised at what I used to listen to. It was weird. I realize I've changed alot in the past year. Not just in my taste in music, but in alot of other stuff too. I've been looking through photo albums and going back to really old facebook posts and I've noticed priorities have changed. Alot. Stuff I used to think was important, isn't so much anymore. I guess it's all part of growing up, but it's just weird to think about how much a person can change in just one year. Anyways...enough of this deep thought and reflecting stuff. Enjoy this song I used to listen to when I was 15!!

Belle and Sebastian - I'm A Cuckoo

I'd like to see you
But really I should stay away
And let you settle down
I've got no claims to your crown.

Bright Eyes - Take It Easy (Love Nothing)

HOT!!

I've been cooking alot the last few days! I've made cookies, pizza, apple pie and a whole bunch of other stuff. I don't know what's gotten into me. I think I just go through phases. Anyway...today I made a couple of pizzas. I made the dough last night so it would be ready in time for lunch today. I made a little spinach and cheese one and a big half cheese, half pepperoni pizza. THEY WERE ZOOOOO GOOD!!! Especially the spinach and cheese one! Holy moly it was good! I was a dummy and decided I didn't want to wait for it to cool down and ate a slice of pizza fresh out of the oven. Turns out boiling, hot cheese can burn your mouth really bad. Who knew?! The roof of my mouth got super burnt and even peeled. I'm still in pain!! Next time I'll wait a little longer before I try to eat boiling cheese! I made more dough tonight, so tomorrow there'll be MORE pizza and spaghetti and chicken parm for the fam.

Dr. Dog

Daniel Johnston - Honey I Sure Miss You

Bright Eyes - I've Been Eating For You

Vivian Girls - Before I Start to Cry

Wolf Parade - Grounds for Divorce

"And the way they get loved, and the way they get loved oh"

Cat Naps

I took a nap after school the other day. My cat came to join me. My parents snapped a picture of us and commented on the fact that we looked pretty similar. I kind of agree!

Disney for my 21st

It was my birthday a few days ago and I went to Disney World for the day. I went with my brother and my cousin. Since my aunt and uncle work there, we got in for free! It was a pretty fun day. It was really hot,  rained a bit and we got wet and stinky, but it was fun! I was exhausted when I got home. For my birthday, my parents got me a whole bunch of fruit from Whole Foods (which I asked for), a cool goofy skateboard figurine, my aunt got me a t-shirt, and my other aunt gave me money. 

Goofy Action Figure!

Went to Italy...in Epcot.

Got my brother to do his first plank!

Tea Cups!! I felt like puking so bad after I got off this ride. I guess I'm not so good with the whole spinning really fast thing.

 Myra and Alberto before the teacup ride.

During the teacups. We were spinning as fast as we could spin the wheel.

 

Cool little mini town.

Went on the carousel!

The busts from the Haunted Mansion ride.

Cool statue.



Hoops and Yoyo - "I love you"

This is the one of the cutest things I've ever seen!

One month down. Eight more to go.

Elvis Presley - Return To Sender

Elvis Presley was a BABE!!! That hair! That voice! Those cheekbones! That smile! Those dance moves!

This was last spring in NJ. What a dork!

Lozt..

10 pounz zince I got homE.! Stoked!

Planz til next zummer:

It's weird how it feels like winters are just there to kill time until camp starts back up. Any way herez da plan!

1. Get a job. I've applied at so many places. I have another interview tomorrow. If I end up getting this job I'll be so excited! I'll finally be able to start saving, which brings be to number 2 on the plan list.

2. Save up!! This is an easy one! As long as I'm living at home, I save a buttload of money, which is cool. I don't have to pay for my car this winter (cause I don't have one) which means I can save even more! All I'll be saving up for is insurance, registration, and school loans. And of course..a maybe trip to Arizona in the winter and camp in the summer.

3. AWIZONUHH trip. Still undecided, but for now we're keeping it as a number on this plan list. TThe plan is to drive out right after new years and get back in time for school to start spring semester. So pretty much stay out there for a quick week, skate, eat Venezia's and then book it back home. If not in January, then maybe for spring break.

4. Skate every Wednesday at Vans til they get shut down. They get shut down in January, which kinda sucks.

5. Make it out to Lakeside at least every other week.

As you can tell, skating isn't really on my list of priorities. I want to work as much as possible this winter so I have enough money to pay off my loan and get to camp next summer. The loan's like 6.500, which iz ALOT! I figure if I work at leat 25 hours a week for maybe 8 an hour I'll make about 200 a week (before taxes) and then have to work at least 33 weeks just to cover my loan. It's good thing I don't have to pay that crud back until after I graduate, cause if that was the case I wouldn't be going to camp next summer. I also figure that tuition for next semester will be less due to the fact that I'll have in-state tuition, so I can use some the money I get back to pay off the loan. So it won't really be 6,500, it'll actually be less, which means I can work less weeks to pay off the loan and I'll have more weeks where my paychecks are just going into savings.

Joe Jack Talcum - True Love Will Find You in the End (Daniel Johnston cover)

Hopefully someday soon.

Score!

A feast?! For me!?

Guess who's gonna be pigging out for the next few days!

WOWZA!

Made bank this year! Thanks Tia Yolanda!

Tamales!

My dad cooks the best food!

Well, well, well..

Look at what the cat dragged in!!

My brother made it home..and on his birthday too! Happy 20th, kid!

Daniel Johnston - Impossible Love

Ben Folds - You Don't Know Me

The Cascades - Falling Rain

Fingers crossed!!!

I might get a job!!
             I might get a job!!
                               I might get a job!!
                                        I might get a job!!
                                                           I might get a job!!
                                                                 I might get a job!!
                                                                        I might get a job!!
                                                                                   I might get a job!!
                                                                                  I might get a job!!
                                                                                                                   I might get a job!!
                                                                                        

No thanks.

Mungo Jerry - In the Summertime

Idea Thiefs!!

Look who just got a basketball hoop right next to the vert ramp!

and in other news...

I have alot of homework for this weekend. I have to write and practice a speech on hurricane preparedness. I already forsee that Speech class is going to be the class I'll have the most difficult time in. Monday morning is going to come and I'll probably feel like puking until the speech is given. And then I'll just be all jittery for the rest of the day. I love that my weekends are four days long though! Ahh the perks of being in school and not being employed! I need to catch up on sleep. And finish reading all the books I started reading. I have like seven books out right now. I have The Stranger by Albert Camus, A Happy Death by Albert Camus, The Pearl by John Steinbeck, and The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom. Only four. My bad!

Tomorrow will probably look a little like this: (I've been slacking with the whole daily planner thing)

1. Wake up and shower and stuff ( I think this one is going to stop being a number. I think it's implied that to go somewhere I need to wake up and shower and stuff.)

2. Volunteer at the Community Food and Outreach Center.

3. Grab lunch at Loving Hut.

4. Do homework.

5. Read a book.

6. Go on a bike ride.

7. Ipod Party!!

8. Sleep.

7:30 AM class!?

Yesterday I slept a total of 10 minutes. 10!! I didn't sleep! It wasn't that I didn't want to. I couldn't. All I did was stare into the darkness thinking about stuff. I got up at 6 thinking about what a fool I was to pick such an early class. Before I picked it I told myself, "the earlier I get in, the earlier I get out." What a dummy. Aparently I didn't remember what happened last time I picked such an early class! Last time I picked a 7 AM class, I ended up not going half the time. Attendance killed my grade. Oh well. Endure to the end! 13 weeks to go!
Now I'm off to Whole Foods to do groceries and then off to Vans til 10 tonight. I'll probably fall asleep in some corner at Vans. Bring me a blanket!

Happy Blog-iversary!

Today is my blog's first birthday!! Happy Birthday Blog! In case you missed my first post ever, you can see it here. It was pretty much me saying I decided to start a blog.

I miss Woodward!!

Bahh! I miss Woodward! I miss skating down to camp in the mornings. I miss skating pretty much whenever I wanted to. I miss the kids! I miss the people that worked there. I miss going into the office and asking if I got mail. I miss doing laundry in town. I miss Cookies and Karaoke. I miss Smores. I miss late night Denny's and Swell Taco trips. I miss hanging out til 2 in the morning up at hilltop. I miss Little Caesers. I miss hanging out with counselors on Sundays for porch duty. I miss going to socials. I miss bike rides to the gas station. I miss driving a car full of drunk people into town. I miss grilled cheese sandwiches on Monday and Mac and Cheese on Tuesdays and baked ziti  and cookies on Thursdays! I miss OSIing. I miss hanging out in the shop. I miss staying in the hangar til midnight. I miss stealing ice from the trainers. I miss jumping on the trampolines. I miss my bunk! I miss milkshakes. I miss always having someone to hang out with.

I miss getting into dryers!!

Movies, movies, movies.

I love this movie! I could watch it a million times.

and this one too..

"The guy I dreamed of doesn't exist, and if he doesn't exist I'll never die of a broken heart."
I end up crying everytime I watch this movie. (What a dork!)

and..

I went on my first bike ride in Florida today, since I've been back from camp. I got chased by a big, barking dog.  As soon as the dog got close to me I started slowing down and then was like, "What the heck am I doing?" and sped up. Talk about almost having a heart attack!!

Wrestling Again

Its starting to be that time of year again, when the only thing I can think about is wrestling. It starts soon. I can't wait! I think it's super weird trying to wrestle out here, because its always hot. I used to have a long 2 hour practice where I'd end up drenched in sweat and then go out into the snow in shorts and a hoodie and being able to cool down. Now I'm going to have to get used to being all sweaty and getting even sweatier when I go outside. They have a club out here and the kids are really good. I went to a couple practices last spring and had a blast.

I was looking through my phone the other day and found a whole bunch of pictures and videos a little kid took. The kid's name is Raynger. After finishing high school, I would still go to wrestling practice, only this time it was with kids much younger than me. I used to help out at the middle school and would give him and his little brother rides home everyday after practice. Everyday they would steal my phone and car keys. Those kids are one of the things I miss the most about living in Utah. Everyday I woke up looking foward to going to the middle school wrestling practices after I got out of school. Every Friday night I'd go to sleep super excited about waking up super early the next morning to go to a wrestling tournament.

We all had turns at shaving Coach Doug's head after the middle school team placed at state.

Raynger stole my phone and took random videos all the time. You can't tell it's me, but I am the person on the far left. Raynger's little brother Blayze is on my shoulders. All these kids are amazing wrestlers. Raynger and Blayze have been state champs. Tre, the kid on the right, has also been a state champ. It's insane to think that in a few year these kids will be all grown up, graduating high school, maybe wrestling in college, maybe even wrestling in the olympics. Who knows?

Raynger took this one too. This was my freshman year in college. The kid I'm wrestling is Flynt, Raynger and Blayze's older brother. This was after the regular season was over, before freestyle season began. Flynt was a senior that year and took second in state. I always wore at least two t-shirts, one long sleeve and one short sleeve, and a hoodie for wrestling practice. I think that year I was trying to drop to 95. I made it to 98, but couldn't get any lower. I got sick trying to lose the weight and ended up not competing at all that spring. It sucked alot.

Just so you know, I didn't get pinned.

I used to watch David Taylor wrestle when I was in high school. He was and is still an amazing wrestler. This is a pretty old video. This was his sophmore year in high school and now he's a sophmore wrestling at Penn State. It's insane how fast time goes by.

Jared Mees and The Grown Children - Oh No, Oh My God

Hooray for Green Juice!!

I started drinking green juices again today!! I love my green juices!

and..

My parents got me fresh spring rolls without the tofu and vegan ham from Loving Hut for dinner!! Not raw, but oh soo good!

The Avett Brothers - Paranoia in B Flat Major

I like this song. alot.

Daniel Johnston - I Know What I Want

Desk? Who needs a desk?!

Probably why I fall asleep when I do homework.

I found my rubix cubes!!

Spongebob Rubix cube!

I used to be smart.

I was looking through all my old school stuff looking for blank flash cards and found all my flash cards from when I took entomology and biochemistry.

I used to be a bug expert!



Postal Service - Sleeping In

I crack myself up!

I spent most of my friday night doing homework, and spent some of it telling my friend, Kaity Lang, knock knock jokes via facebook chat. The funniest one I thought I told was:

Knock Knock

Who's there?

Dwayne

Dwayne who?

Dwayne the bafftub. I'm dwowning.

I laughed.

The Mamas and Papas - Dream A Little Dream of Me

Lakeside Skatepark!

I just found out a park was built about 10 minutes away from me! The grand opening is September 12! I can't wait. I now have a park to call my local park!

Nick is zoooo excited!

Ya Busted!

Chicken Scratch

Just finished my first page of notes for the semester!

Things...

I should probably learn how to do in this life time:
1. Say 'I love you'. For some reason this is something I find very difficult to say. I wouldn't say it if I didn't mean it, but even when I would mean it, I find it hard to say. It's kinda scary. Maybe because I kinda take it seriously. Maybe because I'd feel kinda dumb if I said it and the other person didn't say it back. Then again maybe I don't care and it's just scary to say. Who knows?! I can say it to my family, then again I've had 20 years of practice, which makes it alot easier to do. It's hard to say to people I haven't known for very long though. Alot of times I want to say it, am about to say it and then...end up chickening out. I'm getting better...or trying to get better.
2. Write with my left hand. What would happen if I broke my right hand and couldn't write with my left hand?! I wouldn't be able to write at all!
3. Change the oil in my car. My dad taught me how to do this when I was pretty young. I used to hang out with him while he fixed the car and he taught me how to do a whole bunch of stuff. I probably would still know how, I just don't remember how.
4. Communicate and show feelings. It's something I've heard alot for the last couple of years. When I was little, I was told to never cry in front of others. I was told that if you show other people your feelings, they can be used against you. I was told that people don't need to know what happens in your life, because they couldn't care less. Basically you have to take care of you because no one else gives a shit. I took that advice to heart when I was little and can say that content and happy are pretty much the only emotions people have ever seen. I can't say that that advice hasn't helped in my life. I've been able to be 'strong' for other people during rough times, to the point where it looks like I don't care. If I'm fine, maybe they'll be fine or at least they won't have to worry about me. Pretty much the whole 'if you're happy, I'm happy' scenario. But holding back feelings, thoughts, and experiences has definetly done more harm than good. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to explode and yet I can't do anything. I know there are people that give a shit and care, but I don't know how to talk about stuff. It's not something I'm used to. Something a friend told me this summer is making me realize maybe it's time to fix that. Maybe not tell my life story to everyone I meet on the street, but at least learn how to talk about stuff.  
5.  Speak another language fluently. I know spanish and english. I'm fluent in both. I took french in high school, but am definetly not fluent in it. I want to start relearning it again so I can speak it with other people. Or just enough so I can actually say that I know how to speak it.
6. Learn how to play the guitar. This is something I've been meaning to do for quite some time, but have just never gotten around to seriously pursuing it. I want to though. It's fun and you get a cool feeling when you learn a new song. I don't want to ever stop learning. With a guitar there are infinite possiblities. I could probably play for a hundred years and still not know everything.

That's the list for now! Maybe soon if I learn how to do this stuff, I'll come up with a new list. For now I have alot to work on.

$254 later...

and all I have to show for it are three textbooks and a little pamphlet. Jeez.

Rollerblading Friends

This is my friend Cassandra. She prefers the name Cassie. She rollerblades. She goes to Woodward West. She is really good! Watch her video!!

Jeffrey Lewis - Broken Broken Broken Heart

Oh, I was so careless
Oh, I was so stupid
To think I'd never feel this way
This way