Stuck

Listening to something about hoobastank and reminiscing about when my brother and I would call our little cousin a hoobastank baby. She would complain and cry and we would laugh and get yelled at. Oh how time flies.

Fuuuuuuudge!!

This song is too good!!

I love

Fruit. Going to school. Playing the piano. People that have been with me and supported me during tough times. My family. My friends. Reading books. Laughing. Sunny days. The beach. The sound of trains going by. Being happy. Being alive.

Mom- "I wish I was as cold and calculating as you are."

Me- "Uh huh. Sure you do."

Summer's done. Here I am, sitting at the airport, reflecting on everything that happened this summer.
This summer had its ups and downs, for sure. I had a blast for the most part. I met a bunch of new people and had the opportunity to get to know people better. I was able to learn a lot from a few people. One of the most important lessons I learned this summer is that you have to love yourself before you can love anyone else. I've been told that time and time again and I think, after hearing it from a friend this summer, it's finally beginning to stick. I've learned that friends have your back when stuff is rough and that life should be enjoyed, not endured. If you're not happy with something in your life you have the ability to change it or leave it behind and be happy. I also learned a lot about anger. I am not usually someone that gets easily offended or hurt because I am able to brush away most things, but this summer I spent a few days angry beyond belief for something that to that other person was most likely of no importance. The other person probably doesn't even realize how upset I was. At one point I took a step back, realized that I was letting my anger ruin what was supposed to be a good time at what I consider to be my favorite place, and decided to let it all go. Being angry doesn't do anyone any good. It just makes you feel sick and unhappy and turns you into a person that other people dont want to be around. I read a quote by Gordon B. Hinckley the other day that pretty much sums up what I learned about anger.
"So many of us make a great fuss of matters of small consequence. We are so easily offended. Happy is the man who can brush aside the offending remarks of another and go on his way.Grudges, if left to fester, can become serious maladies. Like a painful ailment they can absorb all of our time and attention."
Part of me is relieved to be going home. It's kind of like a fresh new start. I'll get to eat all the fruit I want to eat, get healthy, and exercise. I'll be going to school and hopefully getting all of that done this year. I'll be getting knee surgery and have time to recover. In the time that I'm a cripple I'll have time to learn something. I'm thinking I'll probably start playing the piano again. I'll be able to read a lot, especially my first semester. It sounds dumb, but I'll be able to figure out who I am and what I hope to get out of this life. I feel like I have a lot of soul searching to do this winter.
This might or might not be my last post for a while. Facebook is getting deleted here pretty soon. Pictures are the only thing I care about saving and as soon as those are backed up, I'm out of the social networking thing. Id rather hear someone's voice or read a letter they took the time out to write than spend countless hours on a computer indoors when the weather outside is magnificent. This summer was an awesome break from a computer and I felt a lot better and I'd like to keep feeling good.
Anyway, despite everything that happened, summer was good. Fun. Relaxing. A break from real life. I haven't left and I already can't wait to get back to Woodward next summer.

El corazón siente cosas que la razón no entiende.

Jonathan Richman

I went to a Jonathan Richman show last Saturday! It was so much fun! I couldn't see anything but people's backs for a lot of it, but it didn't matter because the music was awesome. Watching the people in the crowd dance made me so happy. It was so much fun!!

I stole this picture from my tall friend.

Birthdays, Camp Life, Days Off

I've been at camp for two months and haven't pulled out a camera once. Unless you count a crummy cell phone camera. And then I guess I have. Anyway...today was Kaity Lang's 22nd birthday and I thought it'd be a good day to pull out the ol' camera. Here's some stuff from recently(ish)

My attempt of trying to take pictures of the birthday girl before she had a chance to get ready didn't go very well. Stiff arm to the camera.

Before starting the day off, we stopped by Kaity Lang's house so she could get ready and have her little mimosa party to get the day started. I agreed to be a driver for the day.

After Kaity was all mimosa'd up, I drove her to town and we got pedicures. We did other stuff too, I just didn't take a picture of it all.

I hadn't been in a nail salon in four years.

"Hey Kaity! Look over here!"

After eating the awesome mac and cheese, salad, and angel food cake Kaity's mom made, we decided to go for a nice walk.

Great view, bro.

Bullet!

Kaity's cats have the coolest haircuts. You can't really see it in this picture but he's all shaved down and has a poofball at the end of his tail.

Now for the not so recent photos. Hanging out with Cassandra, Jess, and Martin in the very beginning of summer, in San Francisco..

The Proclaimers - Then I Met You

Thought that I'd be happy.
Gonna be so happy.
Livin' life alone
And never sharing anything.
Thought that I was finished.
Thought that I was complete.
Thought that I was whole instead of being half of something.
Thought that I was growing
Growing older, wiser
Understanding why this world held nothing for my spirit
Thought that I was destined
Destined to be nothing
Destined to be nothing in this world, then I met you.
I met you.

I hate it when you wear long sleeves, wash your face or hands, accidentally get the sleeves wet and end up going to bed with wet sleeves. Worst feeling ever.

Late night bench conversations at camp are so good.

"We all have family dysfunction. That's why we're successful."

Angels - My Boyfriend's Back

Wild Nothing - Summer Holiday

This song makes me think of cool bed sheets in the summertime. Especially makes me think of playing outside on humid New Jersey summer evenings and then going inside to an air conditioned room and crawling into a bed where the sheets are super cold against my hot sunburnt skin.
I miss New Jersey. I miss the way the air smells and the pizza, and the trees and the humidity. This is me making a mental note that I need to go back and visit sometime soon.

Pointer Sisters - I'm So Excited

CAMP!!

Jonathan Richman & The Modern Lovers - I'm Just Beginning to Live

I think I've said it before, but I'll say it again. His dancing is awesome.

Rilo Kiley - Portions for Foxes

"They're playing monopoly upstairs."

Opened my front door to let my cat in and this dude was standing right there about to knock on my door. Almost as scary as when some lady jogged around the corner when I was walking along a dark and sketchy part of town yesterday.

Today

The feeling of waking up early and not wanting to go on a bike ride, followed by guilt for not wanting to go on a bike ride, followed by going on a bike ride anyway and having a good time.

Oh summer..

My knee still hurts, I've been getting this painful pins and needles sensation on my lower back and stomach, and and I can't skate BUTTTT (and this is a big but) it's pretty much summer and I couldn't really care less about all that crummy stuff! The weather is awesome, I'm eating awesome food, I go on a bike ride whenever I want, read a book whenever I want, am spending time with family, listen to music whenever I want, go to bed early, wake up early and will be traveling soon and seeing cool people soon and swimming and hiking and partying and just having fun all the time... Life is currently pretty fudgin awesome!! I love summer. Best time of the year!

My dad just got a job at an awesome pizza place!! Guess who's going to be eating awesome free ny style pizza for the next two weeks?! This kid!!

And I've been waking up early-ish for the last couple of days and realized how awesome it is! I wake up, go on a bike ride or jog, shower, eat breakfast, sit outside in the sun for a few hours, and study all before noon. It's so awesome! And I can actually sleep when I go to bed at night because I've been doing stuff all day! Waking up early is really awesome!

The Cars - My Best Friend's Girl

80's Cardio

Just gone done doing an awesome workout while listening to 80's cardio radio on pandora. So good!

Winter Plans

It may seem like planning for next winter when it's not even summer yet is totally insane, but trust me when I tell you it's not. Plans are never a sure thing. They can always change. I'm not a big planner though. I just plan where i want to go and figure out a way to get there. Where I'm staying and how I'll get around are things I couldn't care less about. You can worry about that when you get to wherever it is you're going! Just grab a map and get on a bus or walk.

So for next winter I have a couple things I want to do during the month I have off from school. Here they are:

1. Winter camp. I've been wanting to go out there for the last two winters and it just hasn't happened. This upcoming winter I really want to go. 9 months of not going to camp is way too long. I love it out there for sure!

2. Tuscon, Arizona. I really like Arizona. I've been twice and it's been super fun. I want to hang out in Tuscon for a couple weeks, be a tourist and work at a farm that produces organic produce. I think it'd be really cool to learn how the stuff I eat is grown. They have a work exchange program like at camp. I get to stay at the farm in exchange for a few hours of work a day. Instead of working with kids I'll be working with vegetables. It'd be a good opportunity to meet people. Kinda get me out of my comfort zone. I like going places where I don't know anyone and don't know where I am, where I'm going or what the hell I'm doing. And... Being in Arizona gives me a chance to get my Venezia's fix! Always a good thing!

3. Guatemala. I think if the two first options don't end up happening, this one will. I like Guatemala and would get to hang out with family that lives there. And it's during the holidays which means a lot of awesome food and parties.

Sleigh Bells - Comeback Kid

This song is pretty darn good. It sounds like something I've heard before but I can't seem to think of what it is right now...

The Black Keys - Tighten Up

The very first time I heard this song was summer 2010. I liked it alot at the beginning and pretty soon I couldn't stand it. Every night before bed I'd flip through the channels and Mtv at somepoint in the night would play this song. It was rediculous how overplayed it was. It's been a while since I listened to it. I heard it today and liked it again. So here. Listen. It's good. Just don't listen to it too many times.

I can't wait!!

I can't wait for camp. I am beyond excited.

Hunger and Poverty in America

I've been in some of these kids shoes and it sucks to be able to say that.

some secrets need to be kept
some stories should never be told
some reasons should never be understood
they just might turn your blood cold

OMG I can't sl33p!! Wut will I dooooo?

Jonathan Richman - I'm a Little Dinosaur

Wild Nothing - Our Composition Book

The Bangles - Walk Like An Egyptian

I miss.

James Taylor - Fire and Rain

"But I always thought that I'd see you somehow, one more time again."

Enchanted - That's How You Know

I think this movie is pretty good. Pretty corny, but good. This is my favorite part.

Eddie Murphy - Party All The Time

"My girl wants to party all the time, party all the time."

Fugazi - Waiting Room

Backstreet Boys - Incomplete

I totally love this song. Its great.

Feist - Inside and Out

I keep telling myself that I'll stay away from this and all blogs until the end of the semester in order to concentrate on homework. I'm starting to see that it's not going to be possible.

You're killing me Mr. Wright! Seriously killing me!

Vegetarian?

I've been a vegetarian for over a year now and don't really miss eating meat all that much. That said, I definitely think there are some meaty meals that I wouldn't be able to pass up.
1. Philly cheese steak in Philly. I'm saying in Philly because I know they are the best there. Nothing compares to Philly cheese steak made in Philly. When I was little we took a field trip to Philadelphia to see the liberty bell and all that other rad stuff. I had a Philly cheese there and instantly fell in love. it was beyond delicious.
2. Chicago dog in Chicago. They look so delicious. Someday I will get up there and have a hotdog. Someday.
Tell me these pictures aren't mouthwatering and I will call you the biggest liar on the face of this earth.

Belle and Sebastian - I'm Not Living in the Real World

The Cars - You Might Think

Oh well uh you might think I’m crazy
To hang around with you
Or maybe you think I’m lucky
To have somethin’ to do
But I think that you’re wild
Inside me is some child

You might think I’m foolish
Or maybe it’s untrue
(you might think I’m crazy)
You might think I’m crazy
(all I want is you)
But all I want is you

You might think it’s hysterical
But I know when you’re weak
You think you’re in the movies
And everything’s so deep
But I think that you’re wild
When you flash that fragile smile

You might think it’s foolish
What ya put me through
(you might think I’m crazy)
You might think I’m crazy
(all I want is you)
All I want is you

And it was hard so hard to take
There’s no escape without a scrape
But you kept it going till the sun fell down
You kept it going

Oh well uh you might think I’m delirious
The way I run you down
But somewhere sometimes
When you’re curious
I’ll be back around
Oh I think that you’re wild
And so-o uniquely styled

You might think it’s foolish
This chancy rendezvous
(you might think I’m crazy )
You might think I’m crazy
(all I want is you)
All I want is you-a-oo
All I want is you
(all I want is you)
All I want is you

"Don’t be afraid to be a fool. Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don’t learn anything. Because cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world because we are afraid it will hurt us or disappoint us. Cynics always say no. But saying yes begins things. Saying yes is how things grow. Saying yes leads to knowledge. “Yes” is for young people. So for as long as you have the strength to, say yes."

I want to skate so bad. Sooooo bad it makes me kinda want to cry. Yup, that's how bad.

Paquita le del Bario - Rata de dos Patas

I think the lyrics to this song are so funny. Mean, but funny. Some dude must've broken this lady's heart real bad.

Maldita cucaracha
que infectas donde pisas
que hieres y que matas

I don't want to grow up.

I don't want to grow up yet. I still want to be a kid and play. I had a talk with my uncle where he told me that I need to grow up, stop skating, get a good job and start saving for the future, start thinking about marriage, act like a woman, and stop 'wasting' my time in California every summer. As much as I think he's full of bolognia he might be right about some of the stuff. Kind of. Not really.
I should get a good job and start saving money but...not here or right now. I don't see the point of getting a good job when I'm leaving in two months. I don't see the point of getting a good job in a place where I don't want to live for the rest of my life. My family wants me to go to vet school here, but I don't want to live here for the rest of my life. As soon as I can get out of here, I want to. My sights are set on going to vet school in California and living out there and getting a 'good' job out there.
As far as the 'stop skating' thing goes, I'm thinking he's maybe right. I physically -and mentally- am not capable of really skating. I haven't had a good time skating for the last three and a half months. My knee will probably never be the same as it was. I'll eventually probably be able to roll around and do a couple tricks or whatever, but my days of spending hours upon hours at a skatepark are probably over. The sucky thing is that even when it's a lot better I'll still be scared to skate. I've never ever felt pain like I have with this knee thing. Sounds dumb, but I everytime I think about skating and hurting my knee again, I feel like crying. All I can imagine is skating, planting my foot wrong, feeling my knee bend sideways, hearing a bunch of pops, and then being in horrible pain. I guess I'll have to find another hobby. Boys maybe. Just kidding. I meant school and bike rides and going to the gym and going to the beach and cooking and reading and crocheting and volunteering and stuff.
The whole marriage thing is a joke. I don't want to get married anytime soon, especially here in Florida. Like I said before, Florida is temporary. I want to be on the west coast. I don't want to get married until I know that I will love that person forever and always be happy with them. And how will I know that? Beats me. I guess when the person's right and time is right, you just know. I know some married people that are happy and have been for a long time. And then I know some people that can't stay married long or have had really crummy marriages or are always fighting with their spouse. It seems like today, the second scenario is much more common. In any case, I don't want to get married right now. If that and skating are the only things keeping me from being a 'woman', then I guess I'm halfway there.
As far as the 'wasting time in California' thing goes, I don't think I'm wasting time. I'm truely happy there. I don't think that doing something that makes you happy means you're wasting your time. I've only been there two summers, but I can't really imagine not going. I think I've mentioned it before on this blog, but if I had the chance, I would live at camp, no questions asked. I can't really say it enough. I'm happy there. I love hanging out with kids everyday and knowing what I'm going to eat everyday and just hanging out with people I actually like hanging out with.

"I pushed away everyone that cared about me because I didn't want to risk being disappointed. I guess I thought that I if I acted like I didn't care, I would care and him being gone wouldn't hurt so much."

Conor Oberst - Moab

There's nothing that the road cannot heal.

Bright Eyes - First Day of My Life

I love this song. You say Bright Eyes and I automatically think of this song. The first time I ever heard this song I was 19, living in Utah and was doing 'homework' late one night during the spring semester of my sophmore year. A friend put some of the lyrics to At the Bottom of Everything as his facebook status. I typed them into google and then typed Bright Eyes into youtube and one of the first songs that came up was this one. I listened to the first couple seconds of it and was hooked. It was insane how happy I instantly felt. Giddy i guess. I clicked the repeat button for the rest of the night. I hear this song now and I can remember what it smelled like outside. It was still cold out, so it smelled like snow. It's so weird. It's a great song. I like the dog in the video and the dude with floofy hair at :16 and the other dude with floofy hair at :22.

Naked Eyes - Always Something There

The Tallest Man on Earth - A Lion's Heart

"He's a fool now among us, a dreamer within"

Prodigal

Last night I dreamt

That I enjoyed crushing boys hearts. And that for valentines day I got a 40 bottle in a brown paper bag, that instead of being filled with booze was filled with malted milk balls. The person that sent it knew I'd be taking the elevator so that's where I found it along with a kewt delivery boy.

Jonathan Richman and the Modern Lovers - Buzz Buzz Buzz

I love this song.

But the sound of your little voice darling,
that's the sweetest sound I've ever heard

Pandora's been killing it lately with good music. When I feel like dancing like a fool around the house I put on 80's Cardio Radio and it is so good.

It doesn't really stick to the 80's..but it's still sooooo good!

5 dayzzz...

Until I can order a whole bunch of new shirtzzz (I don't actually need)!! Very excited!!

"Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?"

Watching skate videos makes my knee hurt like no other!! Holy moly!

"I brought a friend. I hope that's okay." - my zooted brother coming into my room to eat a sandwich at 2 AM while the dog follows him.

I love this show. And Hugh Laurie. I hope that whatever dude I end up with looks like him when he's 40-something. And has a similar personality.

Gross post.

I am never ever ever ever again consuming anything that is supposedly cleans out your system. I feel like I'm dying. I had a juice made out of lemon, ginger, tomato, broccoli, cucumber and spinach. I am puking my lungs out. Oh my goodness!! I haven't puked while conscious in a long time so I never know what happened or how it feels. I forgot about the other day. It still sucks. It really does. Great second day of spring break.

"Dude, I can't feel my head." -my brother.

Nouvelle Vague - Ever Fallen in Love

Puked up most of my dinner tonight. Never eating that much again. Ugh.

Belle and Sebastian - Another Sunny Day

Nouvelle Vague - Heart of Glass

I wanna get the fudge outta Florida!! About 10 weeks before that becomes a possiblity. Let the countdown begin.

I used to...

When I was younger and a bit shorter I used to do this. Sometimes I find that I still have to, but only to get stuff from the top shelves.

Last night...

I had the weirdest nightmare. I don't even really remember the whole nightmare, but in part of it there were two deer in my bed. They had apparently come in through my open window. We startled them out of my room and followed them through the house and they disappeared. In another part of the dream I was staring out of my window and saw a family at my neighbors house eating dinner. There was a lady with white hair staring occasionally at me when she ate, as if she knew I was there, in my dark room, watching.
I don't remember the rest of the dream, but it was weird. It wasn't even that scary, just weird and it made me feel watched. I woke up at like 4, grabbed my blanket, and ran to my parents room and asked them if I could sleep with them. They obviously said yeah and I slept dreamless for the rest of the night. I wonder how many other 21 year olds run to their parents' rooms when they have bad dreams.

Is it possible..

to be full but hungry at the same time? Because I am really hungry, but the thought of eating is making me nauseous. But I want to eat. Fudge, man.

I think I will eat.

Toni Wine - A Boy Like You

Six months down. Three more to go.

The coolest thing...

about this blog is going back to the very first posts and reminiscing about certain events. It's cool that by looking at an old post, I am able to remember exactly what I did that day, where I went and who I spent time with.

The White Stripes - Hypnotize

Elvis Presley - They Remind Me Too Much Of You

Remember Then - The Earls

Chicken Shower

This is how my chickens shower. They roll around in a whole bunch of dirt. I love watching them.

Who Put the Bomp - Barry Mann

Darling bomp, bah, bah bomp
bah bomp, bah bomp, bomp.
And my honey
rama lama ding dong forever.
And when I say dip, da dip
da dip, da dip
You know I mean it
from the bottom of my
boogity, boogity, boogity shoo.

Kenny Rogers - Just Dropped In

The Thermals - Top of the World

You can't listen to on this blog, so you have to go here.

The Proclaimers - What Makes You Cry?

Woodwaaaaaaaaad:

Where doing laundry is no longer a chore, it is an adventure!

Once again realizing how much I miss it at camp. If someone told me I had an hour to pack my bags and get to the airport, to board a plane to California,  to live and work at camp, I would do it in a heartbeat. I wouldn't need to be told twice. I'd shove all my important stuff in a suitcase and be out the door in maybe twenty minutes.

I miss almost everything at that place. I miss how things you view as a chore in your everyday life become an adventure at camp. Take doing laundry for instance. At home I do laundry because I have to. If I don't, I don't have clothes to wear. It's tedious and uneventful and I don't take a nice trip in a car or get food in the process. At camp, laundry day is fun. I do laundry every week even if I don't really need to. I go into town with whoever's going, get to listen to music with the windows down for a nice car ride, get to eat Little Caesers or Hungry Howies or pho or chinese or ice cream or City Slickers or something from Albertsons or Savemart, get to hang out at the laundromat reading magazines or the local paper, get to watch a movie if no one has to be back at camp for a shift. Grocery shopping is fun, too! Walking aimlessly around the store grabbing snacks you want, but definitely don't need, is fun. Last summer I talked a little bmx camper's parents to give me a ride into town to get rice cakes, water, and candy. Stashing food in your room is acceptable and encouraged. Sleeping is even fun, because you get to sleep in a bunk. Staying up late is fun because you almost always have someone else that is staying up late or doing something or going somewhere [like Denny's or Del (SWELL) Taco]. Going to the thrift stores and buying stuff you don't need is fun. Talking to strangers in town is fun. Going to 'work' is fun. Going to breakfast, lunch and dinner is fun because you always know what you're eating, when you're eating, know you'll never eat alone and can eat as much as you want.

Life is fun at camp.



Rilo Kiley - Ripchord

Norah Jones - What am I To You?

I love this kid.

My brother will text me, from the next room, until I make him what he wants to eat.

Zac Brown Band - Keep Me in Mind

I've been looking for someone like you to save me
Life's too easy to be so damn complicated
Take your time and I'll be waiting
Keep me in mind
Somewhere down the road you might get lonely

Alberto: I just like hitting you. I don't know why. I like hitting your mane. (Whack)

Watching a person, that has mental issues, try to live their daily life is so hard. You don't understand why they do certain things or feel a certain way and neither do they. You can't do anything to help them and neither can they. They depend on you, even when you want to depend on them. Fudge, man.

Joshua Radin - I Missed You

Holy Babe-ness.

So, so, so
What I need to know, know, know
is when I get home, home, home
will you still be there?
I've been around the way
been around, but not okay,
cause I missed you so.
I'm coming home
just to let you know
that I missed you.
Every crowd I see your face .
I keep looking, just in case.
It's all perfect but there's something out of place.

The Proclaimers - I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles)

Mrs. Brown: Ms. Rivera, you better stop talking to Mr. Smith. Once that phone rings, he'll drop you like a hot potato.

Never knew he was holding me, lady.

Toothless

This used to be one of my favorite movies when I was little...HA! I mean younger. I watched it I think twice when it played on the Disney channel and then they changed around their whole programming and started playing crummy movies. I think they should bring back all the old movies. For some reason I was thinking about this movie today. I ended up watching it. I just finished. I have to finish a rough draft for a paper by tomorrow and all I have done is my thesis. It is 3:25 in the morning and the paper has to be 1000-1500 words.
I am screwed. Very screwed. At least I had a good time watching a good movie. Cool, right? Who needs sleep?!

Bonnie Tyler - It's a Heartache

Not Again...

Well, I hurt my knee again. I bet whoever reads this dumb blog is sick of hearing that. If you are, I'm sorry, but it's happened again. I went to Metro today and on a baby mini ramp I hurt my knee bailing out of a tail stall. How does that happen? I haven't a clue. All I know is I was stepping off my board, my knee cracked and bent all weird and then I was on the ground writhing in pain. Sucks. I miss my knee and the way it used to work.

Here's some clips I took while complaining about my leg. Enjoy. Or don't. It's your call. If you decide you want to watch crummy cell phone clips, it's Ian and Iaasac skating the baby mini.

Feeling a little caged in.

Christina Perri - Arms

The Marvelettes - Please Mr. Postman

Bobby Vee - Take Good Care of My Baby

Joan Jett - I Hate Myself for Loving You

Jonathan Richman - She Doesn't Laugh At My Jokes

I'm starting to get into the whole 'I couldn't care less about anything' mindset. Last time I thought this way I started skipping class, did things I'm not too proud of, and took a year off school. I have to snap out of it soon or stuff isnt going to be good.

Charlotte Gainsbourg - Me and Jane Doe

My knee is currently sucking a nut (not literally) and it sucks (also not literally).

I'm 10 again

Mom: What are you making?
Me: Nunya.
Mom: What is it?
Me: Nunya.
Mom: What is that?!
Me: Nunya business!
Mom: Pendeja!

Today,

I went to Winter Park and then New Smyrna Beach.

I love food.

Dad: Where did you get all that?
Me: The store.
Dad: Why didn't you ask me for money?
Me: Because I have some.
Dad: From where?
Me: My tuition.
Dad: Stupid daughter. You should ask me. What are you making?
Me: Pasta. Do you want some?
Dad: Of course! I never say 'no' to food.

...now I know why I like food so much.

If I could pick 10 things to eat for the rest of my life, I would pick:
1. Blueberries
2. Strawberries
3. Mushrooms sautéed with garlic
4. Cantaloupe (has to be ripe and sweet)
5. Water from a young thai coconut
6. Fresh spring rolls with the delicious peanut sauce
7. Crisp organic gala apples
8. Watermelon (has to be sweet)
9. Fresh pineapple
10. Pizza (just because it's that good and there's so many different types)


This was dinner tonight.

It was delicious. It's brown rice pasta with green beans, scallions, sesame seeds, mushrooms, gluten-free soy sauce, and bean sprouts. It was vegan and gluten-free.
My dad and uncle ate some and they thought it really good. They tend to stay away from anything I say is healthy because some of the stuff I've given them has made them want to gag (like green juice). Today I didn't say 'healthy' or 'vegan' or 'gluten-free' so they were down to eat. They ate more than I did (which is hard to do) and it kinda made me wish I'd said one of the scary words.

Resolution update

A month has pretty much gone by and I feel like it's time to review the new years resolutions I made because some of them might not be kept.

[1. Go to bed early. (11-ish)
2. Wake up early. (7-ish)]
*These first two resolutions were kept one day. ONE!! I currently go to bed around 4 or 5 a.m. and wake up around noon, except for the days I have school, in which case I'm up around 10. I'm changing these two to: get a good night's sleep.

3. Get good grades. Nothing lower than an A-.
*This one'll be cake!

4. Get healthy. Lots of fruits and veggies. Make it to the raw food dinners six times. Exercise everyday, even if it’s just a 10 minute bike ride around the block. Get buff again. Get to the point where I am once again capable of doing 20 pull ups and 100 push ups without stopping.
*This one has quite a few parts to it. The first part is about eating healthier which has actually been pretty easy. Most days I only eat fruits and vegetables. I've had pizza maybe twice, cookies maybe twice. Lost a couple pounds which is pretty cool.
Exercise has been an almost everyday thing except for that first week that I hurt my knee. I was supposed to stay off my leg for at least two weeks but after the third day of laying bed i i felt like i was going to go insane, so took off my immobilizer and started walking around. I fell a couple times and that sucked but it was better than not doing anything. Now, until I get my knee brace so i can start skating again, its been the gym everyday. It either swimming or bike riding for an hour an then lifting. I seem to have a really hard time not doing anything. I've always been really active. Before skateboarding there was track and wrestling. Before that it was football. Before that it was swimming, bike riding, tag, swing sets, and basketball.
The whole push ups and pull ups goal is slow. I can do 25 push ups and 2 pull ups. Sucks.

5. Read a book every month.
*It's only been a month, so that means one book and I read this book by some lady Fitzgerald. I read it 2 weeks ago. It was good. I don't remember what it was called, but it was good.

[6. Re-memorize all the state capitals. And then country capitals.
7. Relearn the bones in the body. Then muscles and ligaments and tendons. Once I successfully accomplish that, learn the organs and their locations. And then nerves. And then other stuff. Basically everything in the body, I want to know.
8. Go to Woodward.
9. Go to the doctor and dentist at least once. Get blood work done.
10. Start saving up for the move to California.]
* I haven't really started on any of these yet. It's okay. I have all year.

This is pretty dang good.

More camp dreams

New big street.

Camp boyfriend.

Awkward dinners.

Sweaty armpit pokes.

Bribery.

Vans Closing Clips

I was going to make a short crummy cellphone footy montage but didn't feel like it (and the sound wasn't working and the footy was plain horrible) so here are some clips from Friday's closing party. The clips aren't any better still have crummy quality, but at least if you get sick of the quality after the first one you can stop watching. Even though technically you could stop watching after the first clip if you're watching a montage, but that's besides the point. Just watch. These are the last clips from Vans you will ever see on this blog. 

Little Robbie and Daniel Lutheran

Bb's back!!

Nick. Trying to skate Vans on the last couple days was like playing frogger.

Daniel. At the end you'll notice some little kid falls to the ground. Daniel's board hit him in the legs. I wish I would've kept filming.

Vert sesh, bro.

Yodaaaa!

Daniel.

There were alot more, but that's all I feel like uploading. Maybe sometime soon I'll post the rest. That way you'll see Vans clips even after Vans has been no more for a while. Maybe. Maybe not.

More camp dreams.

Last night I dreamt that it was time to leave for camp and I packed my stuff up and got a ride to the airport. I forgot to get my ticket ahead of time so I had to buy it there and it ended up being $832. I was bummed, but at the same time I knew I was off to camp so I didn't care. As I was waiting to catch my flight I was instagramming, blogging, facebooking and just not paying attention to how fast time was going by. I looked at the time and realized I was two minutes late so I ran to get through security and get checked in. They said they would hold the plane for 10 minutes. I ran all over the airport and couldn't find terminal E,
which was were the flight was supposed to be. I was running like a wild woman all through the airport and there were other travelers that were cheering me on as I ran. They were pointing in the direction of terminal E. When I was finally there I was five minutes too late and I ended up missing my flight. I cried. I had to wait for a flight that left the next morning. While I was crying I realized that I'd forgotten my shoes and my boards, so I called home and my mom agreed to send them. Then I woke up.
Good thing there isn't a terminal E at this airport!!

Dean Martin - That's Amore

Too good!!
"When you walk down a street with a cloud at your feet, you're in love.
When you walk in a dream but you know you're not dreaming, signore."

Five months down. Four more to go.

Camp dreams

Last night dreamt that I was at camp. Every time I woke up and went back to sleep I continued with my dream.
In the first part of my dream I was hanging out with this greaser looking dude with blondish brownish hair and and glasses. The cabins we were staying in looked nothing like the cabins at camp. They had two floors, patios and looked alot more like cabins you would find in the woods. Him and his greaser buddy told me to sneak out my cabin to smoke a boge and i did. We had to smoke on the patio because if not the cabin would smell. I accidentally dropped the boge and had to jump off the second story patio to put it out because it began to catch leaves on fire. He'd given me this cool, white, long sleeve shirt that said something about oranges on it because I was cold.
Somebody was bummed that he'd given me the shirt, so they put it over a muddy puddle so parents and campers wouldn't step in it. I was bummed but bleached the shirt and it was good as new.
Then all of a sudden I had a bum leg so people kept carrying me around. I didnt even ask them, they would just pick me up and go. We were eating lunch outside, watching this kid jeremy who was crail sliding this wall that had like six feet of vert on it, which was where the crater was supposed to be. I was trying to film it on an iPhone but was having a hard time because I couldn't get the width of the screen to cooperate or something. Then a camper told me I was dumb because I sucked at filming with an iPhone. I just looked at him and laughed as he explained how to do it.
We went into what was supposedly the hanger and went up to the vert ramp. There was a bunch of girls stretching. I'm thinking it was girls week. One of the dudes that was carrying me thought it would be funny to jump off the vert ramp into what looked like the resi. The landing ended up being really, really soft. Bounce house soft so it didn't hurt at all.
All of us were osi's and thought we were going to have to work so someone went to go check the schedule. All of a sudden, we remembered it was Sunday and didn't have to work and we jumped for joy.
My current English teacher came out of some office as we were going to the bathroom and told the dudes that if they were caught doing anything they shouldn't with 'gals' they would be forbidden to wear deodorant but could chew gum. Some dude said something about how he was going to smell worse than he already did. I laughed and they were bummed because of the deodorant thing and then I woke up for good.

The Teen Idles - Sneakers

Put on your sneakers and be a kid
You're not fooling anyone

“But I must admit I miss you terribly. The world is too quiet without you nearby. I go to bed early and rise late and feel as if I have hardly slept.”
- Lemony Snicket

Happy Birthday Ma!

Dad (reading mom's birthday card): You're 52?! Man you're old!

Today I tried to walk fast and tripped on the grass. I feel like a toddler.

The Cramps - I Can't Hardly Stand It

I hope swimming isn't a part of that whole no physical activity because that's what I'll be doing until I can skate.

3-6 weeks until I'm supposed to do any physical activities.

1 week and 2 days down.

1 week and 5 days -- 4 weeks and 5 days to go. Fudge!

Dion & The Belmonts - Lovers Who Wander

Mom: Do you know where the broom is?
Me: Up your butt and around the corner.
Mom: (silence) Huh?

Dean Martin - Besame Mucho

The Temptations - Ain't too Proud to Beg

The Vandals - Anarchy Burger

Dion & The Belmonts - Runaround Sue

Vivian Girls - Never See Me Again

The McCoys - Hang on Sloopy

Not my name

My mom calls me many things some of which include:

Pepita
Margarita
ET
Loretta
Nena
Etta
Mamita
Nina
Etta care etta

I laugh when I'm in pain. Weird.

Uhh?

Fudgin sucks.

There are no words that can accurately describe how uncomfortable I am at this moment. Any little move I make sends shocks throughout my whole body.

Poop nuggets!

Leg. Knee. Ow. Sprain. MRI in a few days to figure out what's going on in there. Maybe MCL. Maybe meniscus. Definitely painful. Staying away from anything that has four wheels and is made out of wood for the next couple months.

Ps. look at how bright the immobilizer is compared to my cool -but dingy- four star socks. Time for color safe bleach? I think yes.

And...

I was just informed that my favorite photograph, featured in my last post, was an album cover for Dinosaur Jr.'s Green Mind. I think that's pretty cool!

Joseph Szabo

Today as I had a Gilmore Girls marathon with my mom I noticed that one of the characters had a t-shirt that had this photo on it. I knew I'd seen the photo before but couldn't remember who'd taken it. I searched and searched on google and low and behold, I found it! I found it first on some picture website that didn't tell me who had taken the picture, so I resumed searching and found the website I'd seen it on years ago.
The photographer is Joseph Szabo.
I remember the first time I saw this picture I was in my sophomore year at Utah State. I used to hang out in the library for fun, in between classes, and after classes. I was taking a full course load at the time. I had early morning till mid afternoon classes and after classes , on most days, helped at the middle school with their wrestling team. Whenever I wasn't in class or wrestling, I was studying. I usually studied til very early morning and had a few hours before I had to go to class again, so i wasn't really getting sleep at night. I got in the habit of going to the library between my classes. I loved that library. It was big and shiny and had books and computers and people that looked like they were trying to meet deadlines. As soon as i walked into that library i instantly felt smarter.
I got into the routine of getting out of class, rushing to the library (to make the most of my break and stay out of the cold), buying a muffin, and heading down to the bottom floor.
Between my early morning classes I had a two hour break and I got into the habit of using that two hour break to take naps on the arm chairs. The bottom floor had these super comfy arm chairs and I'd put two of them together to make a bed. The makeshift bed was a little small, but I was always tired, so it served its purpose.
It was cool because people rarely went on the bottom floor. I'd be in there for hours and would maybe see one or two people. And the noise level was perfect for anything I wanted to do. It was quiet enough that I could sleep and study, but loud enough that I didn't feel completely alone.
When I didn't have to study, got sufficient sleep, didn't have wrestling, but still didn't want to go home, I would pick out random books and start reading. The bottom floor was the art floor so I started looking through a whole bunch of photography books, sculpture books and drawing books. I started getting into older photos that were black and white. I started looking online for cool photos by this dude. That was were I first saw this photo. Boy, do I miss that library.

The Tallest Man on Earth - Tangle in this Trampled Wheat

"But I see traces of your thoughts out here.
I see a sight, I hear a sound.
I only comfort in the brittleness of days when I can hold what I just found."

"If just tonight that I could be where you are near
And just forget where I am lost."

Rilo Kiley - I Never

I like remembering that I had fun.

New years was a blast. I went to a party at my aunt and uncles house where there was music, dancing, great food and best of all, family. It was so much fun.
Every time we have these huge family functions I can't help think about the future. I wonder if we'll still have these parties when our parents are long gone and we have families of our own. I hope we do.

The food is always the best!

"I like you Lorena. You're not drunk and you don't drink but you're still fun."- Mayra

Jonathan Richman - When She Kisses Me